Restarting Grab

This time, restarting Grab feels different.

When I first started in 2018, it was simple. I didn’t have to inform so many people. I just decided — and I did it.

Now?
I found myself updating almost eight people.

Somehow it feels like there’s an invisible voting system going on.
Who supports? Who objects?

If I’m honest, the objection voices sound louder.

Last Tuesday, I sat down with my business partner. She said,
“I trust that you know what you’re doing.”

I replied,
“No, I don’t. I just didn’t want to stay at home overthinking and being emotional. I needed to move. To drive. To take action — even if it’s just buying time while I figure things out.”

For the longest time, I’ve been lost. Very lost.

No plan. No backup plan.
Not even liking the current version of myself.

My coach once said, “Your body is moving forward, but your heart hasn’t caught up.”

So I asked her, “What can I do?”

She said, “You have to wait. Time needs to heal.”

And I said, “I don’t have time.”

So instead of just waiting, I chose to act.
To do something while I wait.
To move while I heal.
To drive while I search.

Maybe I’m buying time.
Maybe I’m creating space.
Maybe I’m waiting for clarity to meet me halfway.

I honestly don’t know.

For now, this is what I can do.
And maybe, only time will tell.