Car Accident!

I got into a car accident last night.

I was on the right lane, trying to filter left. I signalled, but the car behind didn’t seem to notice. Within seconds — impact.

I got out of the car, looked at the damage, and just sighed.
Speechless.

Was I speeding? No.
Did I miss a blind spot? Maybe.

Whatever the case, the fact is — an accident happened.

The other driver was a lady, around 35. She was clearly shaken that she couldn’t even open her door at first and was stuck. There were 3 Korean tourists in her car.

In that moment, I didn’t know whether to feel for her… or for myself.

She apologised. And strangely, I felt more sadness than anything else.
If anything, I felt like it might have been more my fault.

But what’s done cannot be undone.

I called the guy who rented me the car, exchanged the necessary details, and carried on with what needed to be done.

Sometime later, I called a close friend. I figured she would find out eventually, so I might as well tell her myself.

She started explaining the process, what to do next… but honestly, that wasn’t my concern.

I just needed someone to be there.

Thankfully, she stayed on the call.
Even though I wasn’t making much sense, it didn’t matter.

She prayed for me right there.

And I realised — sometimes, we don’t need solutions.
We just need presence.

Looking back, I ask myself —
Was I anxious? In a rush? Taking risks?

Maybe.

I had been setting some goals for myself, and it felt like I was getting close. But somehow, it always feels like this — just when I’m nearing something, things fall apart.

Maybe this is something I still need to learn.
A pattern I need to break through.

For now… I’ll take this as a pause.
To reflect.
To reset.
And to move forward more gently.