A Different Kind of Chinese New Year 不一样的新年

This CNY feels different.

I’m not sure if it’s me, or the external circumstances, but I’m just not quite feeling the festive vibes this year. The CNY shopping was done, the greetings were bought, preparations went on as usual… yet somehow, something feels quieter inside.

Maybe it’s because some of our relatives aren’t coming this year. Perhaps that absence made the difference more noticeable.

Instead of idling, I found myself wanting to move — to cycle, to swim, to get some fresh air. To feel alive in a different way. At the same time, I was getting some work done too. Yes, even on CNY Day 2.

Working, yet having fun.
Resting, yet moving.
Celebrating, yet reflecting.

Do I sound contradictory? Maybe I am. Haha…

But perhaps this is just where I am now — learning that things don’t have to fit into neat boxes. It can be festive and quiet. Productive and restful. Joyful and reflective.

Much as I don’t know how many people will read this, restarting this blog was never about numbers. It was about coming back to myself. Years ago, I used to record my thoughts here. Then life got busier. Somewhere along the way, maybe I lost parts of myself… or perhaps I compromised too much trying to be there for others.

This space now feels like a gentle return.

Trying to find myself again — one post at a time.

Wishing everyone reading this:

身体健康，
心想事成，
万事如意。